Don’t Worry, Bear

My big girl loves a book called Don’t Worry, Bear. It’s about a bear who is friends with a caterpillar. When the caterpillar goes into his cocoon, the bear gets very worried. All the while, the caterpillar is talking to him from inside reassuring him not to worry. Eventually the caterpillar emerges as a butterfly and the bear realizes he never had to worry in the first place.
I have planned for tomorrow for almost a year. It has been an emotional journey thus far and tomorrow we add the physical component. I have been so focused on how the girls will fare in my absence, I haven’t thought about how others might worry about me. I’m a mother, so I can only imagine what this has been like for my parents and what it will be like waiting for me to come out of surgery, watching me recovery. I want to say to them, “Don’t worry, Bear”. Luckily, my husband isn’t typically a worrier (a good balance in our marriage and parenting), but I know he will be sitting out in the waiting room while they operate and he will worry. I want to tell him, “Don’t worry, Bear”. I’m sure my girls will be concerned when they see me after I’ve lost my breasts and wonder if I’m really ok. To them I will say, “Don’t worry, Bear”. Of course, I’m also worried for myself, but I’m thinking about all of the things I never have to worry about again. Waiting for mammogram results, “Don’t worry, Bear”. Feeling a lump, “Don’t worry, Bear”. Getting breast cancer, “Don’t worry, Bear”.
Today I am a caterpillar. Tomorrow I will be a butterfly.

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2 thoughts on “Don’t Worry, Bear

  1. I love you Jenny, and this post is perfect! Don't worry bear is right! You are so strong, brave and an amazing wife, mother, daughter, sister, aunt and friend. And we all love you. Thank you for helping us all be able to love you longer by being so courageous.

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